Well I have been away almost exactly a year. I think it became too hard finally.
The memories started to become more of a part of my present rather than part of the past where they belong. But I am here to finish what I started... I need TO... I need to learn to acknowledge these transgressions that have been done to me but not allow them to take over.
I also enjoy reading all of your blogs, I have been perusing them about a couple of weeks now and I am ready to jump back in the fray. Oh remember I asked whether I should let certain people see this, trying to get advice and while I have not shared with my family, I have given the link to two people. One is a coworker that I have become very fond of and understands a fucked up family as well. Lets see if he still talks to me when he is done ;-}